Darn. There is no need to hide being on the spectrum. There is so much help available out there if you seek it. Our little boy is on the spectrum so we have some hands on experience. I don't know your age but it is never too late to seek help through things like Applied Behavior Analysis, Occupational Therapy, Speech Therapy, etc. It really does help. A lot.ttuee2006/tristar left the internet when I was 12 years old because he accused me of stalking him on Flckr and I wasn't held responsible due to how mentally/emotionally damaged I was from years of masking autism and lying to people about it.